So now I'm looking at some things I do that don't honor God. My hands are a mess because I have a habit of chewing on my fingernails. You might wonder how chewing my nails dishonors God. I believe that this particular habit shows a spirit of fear or anxiety two things the bible specifically says we have no reason to have. It's not the only reason my hands are a mess but I sincerely believe that the dings etc. show that my hands have gotten a lot of use. They've cooled feverish foreheads, changed diapers, washed dishes, dug in the garden, pulled weeds and a million other honorable pursuits. The fact that my hands show a lifetime of work and service gives honor to God, just not the nails so that I am working on. To so all to honor God...I'm sure every day I will come up with things big and small that I didn't do that I had the chance to do and of course the things I should not have done that I did...But instead of letting them slide if I keep that resolution always on my mind, always in front of me more will get done in the honor column and less will be left undone or wrongly done in the "shame" column.
If there's one thing you have, Brenda, it's willing hands. While I don't think that the shorty nails stand out very big to God, I do understand your reference to the nail biting as due to anxiety/fear. Fear is 'False Evidence Appearing Real'. I've struggled with it for many years and it tried hard to manifest itself in my life in many ways. I finally learnd that 'God's got this' is much easier to believe in than that I can change most things by myself. Let go of the shame..and embrace who you really are..a loving christian sister, mother, daughter, grandmother and friend..with a beautiful set of willing hands.
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